Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Overwhelmed+ Reflecting on 911

I'm trying to collect my thoughts as I compose this post. A lot has been going on these past couple of weeks and I'm not the best at adjusting to NEW things. I can get easily frustrated, teary and overwhelmed by things that I don't know or are just learning.

My School Social Work job has this huge learning curve! One minute I feel like I am doing okay and the next minute I feel like I don't know a thing about what I am doing. One minute a teacher is happy with me and the next a teacher is yelling at me for not fixing their student... I feel like I cannot make people happy and honestly, I just want to help kids.  I want to do my best, really, it's just hard being 3 days a week. I can't get it all done..

The feelings of excitement are wearing off, which is blamed by the unknown, juggling of schedules, demands, expectations and the feelings of inadequacy. I know it will be okay, but I feel like I keep complaining to people or asking for help because I don't know. I don't want to bug people, but let's be honest, I am new at this! I need help! I don't have it all together and I'm going to do my best..


Sigh.. Just another day...



The one thing I can count on ......


Running. 

It make me feel normal, it helps me release stress and I don't have to worry about others opinions, I just do it.  I love how running makes me feel and I am thankful to be able to run despite my own personal health struggles.




Last night, I tried a yoga class and LOVED it! It made me feel so at peace and it calmed my soul. I have never felt like the brain chatter was gone, as much as it did in my yoga class.



As I write this, I can't help but feel a little guilty for complanning. Today, is 911 and on this day I want to remember all those who gave their lives innocently due to the acts of evil.

I want to remember this day as a day where America woke up to the reality of our world and realized we are one of the most BLESSED countries in the world. I want to remember this day and be grateful for all who have served, lost their lives and thankful for their families who have given so much. I am proud to be an AMERICAN! I am proud of my country and the name it stands for..




What are you reflecting on today?
 

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