Thursday, April 21, 2011

Life, Anxiety and the deeper side of things

As I have mentioned in previous posts, I have been a ball of anxiety lately. First, let me catch you up on a bunch of medical jargon. Over the next three weeks, I will undergo 5 doctors appointments and four huge tests. As you can imagine, I AM FREAKING OUT!!!

I am hoping or more of these tests reveal the true reason why I pass out every other month. I am hoping we can find a solution though some of these tests. I am tired of being worried and unsure of what is to come next. I have been a big ball of nerves, not to mention googling everything imaginable with my odd symptoms in order to diagnosis myself, which is never a good thing. I think something is huey with my hormones, but nothing has been confirmed or denied. We have to do a bunch of big tests, to rule out the big things and then we might need to get down to the nitty, gritty. I am frustrated and ready for this to be all done. 

I am tired of taking time off from work and frustrated about re-scheduling appointments. I can only hope we find answers and I can then live a more normal life, with less anxiety. 

I panic all the time and often am parnoid about the little things that happen in fear because I am afraid something is seriously wrong. Sighs.
 

1 comment:

Britt said...

I bet it is scary to drive and stuff! I mean they aren't seizures but you still never know when it will happen! That is soo scary!