As much as I love the Christmas season, I am always sad and happy to see it go. I love the preparation and anticipation that Christmas brings. I am excited to begin a new year, but sad because this year I feel as if I do not have a lot to look forward too. Last year, I was looking ahead towards getting married, a wonderful honeymoon, graduating with my Masters Degree and the possibility of landing a sweeet job.
Now, all of those things have come and gone. I am left with the reality and emptiness of trying to find new things to look forward to in 2011. I believe this is the year where we will get “gazelle intense” about our student loan debt. While I have been paying a substantial amount of my income towards our loans, it simply does not feel like we are making progress. I know we are and we can see it, but sometimes it feels like forever away! It is amazing to me how God has provided and I pray that we will continue to honor him, by paying back what we owe. I only wish we could do this faster. The loans are such a heavy yoke that I carry with me all the time.
Ask I think about 2011 and the unknown of the year, I have to ask myself the question “ will this be the year I run the marathon, drop the weight and keep it away for good or will this be another year of failed weight loss attempts, a mirror that reflects an image I hate and deep longing in my soul to be something else”?
I find myself very lost at the prospect of moving forward to 2011 and leaving 2010 behind. 2010 will forever be one of the most memorable years of my life and I will treasure this particularly dearly. It was the year of my life where things were planned with careful attention to detail and where dreams met reality.
What will 2011 bring? I am not sure what is to come, but I will keep you posted!