Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Residential 2

Day 2:

:Lots of tears:

I am trying to be patient about my field placement. I have to remember that I will not know everything on the first day. I need to be open minded. I need to remember that this is a year learning process and it's only for a year.. This is not the rest of my life....


Residential Day 1

Yesterday, I received a call from my field instructor at 3:00 pm stating she expected me at my internship at 4:00 pm. Lack of communication is extremely frustrating. I shed many tears on the way over to my internship and even now, continue to tear up about my internship as I think about it. It feels like one frustration after another.

My supervisor ( who we will call A) was there to assist for me two seconds and then it was off to be trained by TT. For confidentiality purposes, I will use initials. TT was training me and another employee, which consisted of going over thousands of pieces of paper work or so it felt.. I was amazed at every colored sheet and even flustered at how I would remember each piece or how to even fill it out...

In addition, we were able to read some of the kids files. It was sad to read that many of the kids had broken their placements and had been in and out of the system a number of times. Most had broken their foster homes placements or sexually abused other children in the foster homes due to their own victimization.

What was the worst for me, was to realize that not all kids go to a loving, nurturing "home." Many of these kids stay at our shelter and this is the only "home" they know of. For me, this was a sad realization. I want every child to have a "home". After school, I have always had a consistent home. I have always know the expectations and have always been able to watch tv, use the Internet or phone whenever needed. These kids earn privileges.. It is a complete different world..

I am not sure about how I am going to deal with this..

I cried a lot last night.. I hope things get better and I can process stuff or at least justify why this is okay.. Maybe, it is not okay and that is why I am having a difficult time with it...

Monday, May 18, 2009

Grandville High School Baccalaureate

Whitney (Drew's Sister) graduates next Thursday. She is a bit nervous about graduating for it feels like she should have everything figured out.. Sunday, we went to Baccalaureate, which is a church service for graduating seniors. It was so moving to hear that one does not have to every thing figured out. It was also moving to hear the sermon on "following God with your whole heart", which was translated to following God in the big and the small.. In the simple and in the complicated. The message was really inspiring even though I am done with high school, done with undergrad and working towards my Masters.. It was positive and I needed to hear the message..

We are so proud of Whitney and know that God will bless her in whatever direction she may go.

A week of frustrations

This past week has been extremely frustrating. My field placement(internship) has been extremely unprofessional in their communication. I have gone through leaps and bounds to get this thing going and my field placement supervisor has lacked communication. I cannot even get her to return a simple phone call. We have talked since last week Wednesday. .It is getting ridiculous and I ready for a different internship. I cannot stand being in limbo with everything... If the tables were turned and I as a student was not doing my part, GVSU would be failing me, but it is okay to have a supervisor who never calls her student back.. Totally, unacceptable..
I'm done.. Just needed to get that off my chest...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

15.5 Miles of rain, swelling and fun

Saturday was the annual riverbank run in Grand Rapids. It is a pretty big event in our area. 28,000 people were spectators. 17,000 were participants.. Good day of revenue for our area!

This was on the race course. I did pretty well for 8 miles... Then a lady passed out in front my face and I just ran by her and kept going. Seems heartless, but I knew if I stopped I was out. Luckily, their was an aid station close, so it was fine!

At the finish line, Mom and Drew were waiting!

Despite the rain, course change, major hills and soaked feet, I FINISHED!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Senior H20

Yesterday evening, I spent the night at the Grandville Pool. Whit played one of her last water polo games. It was nice to see Grandville win... Go Dawgs..

After the game Drew took me to Carrabba's. It is my favorite restaurant in the entire world. It was for a birthday celebration. Then we came home to watch the biggest loser. I am addicted to that show.. I love it very much.... It was a great evening.

Monday, May 4, 2009

I'm getting old!

:My birthday:

It has been an excellent birthday!

My First Present:


These beautiful flowers were from my Uncle Curt, Aunt Nancy & Cousins.. They came on Thursday. It was a nice kick off to a birthday weekend!

Second gift:
A new running watch!
Super excited! From the rents!

Martha Stewart's Crafts- From the Rents!!

Rachel bought me season 8 of Home Improvement! Love that kid!!

My Sweet Drew! He is a birthday gift in itself.. He bought me a new purple running jacket that I love!!!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Corsages, sparkles & smiles


Remember back to those teenage years when Prom was the biggest highlight of a senior year? I remember girls would plan a whole year in advance about who they would want to ask them and the kind of dress they would wear.

I remember my prom. I felt like a princess living in a fairytale for one evening.

Drews little sister Whitney, had her prom last night. She is a senior and will be graduating this year. The world seems like an open book of endless possibilites when you are a senior. It is funny how life changes, but she was beautiful.. Her date was handsome!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Making it Feel like Home

Drew moved into his new apartment this week! I felt that in order to make it feel like home, it needed to smell like baked cookies.. I made homemade mickey cookies.. They were pretty tasty and yummy!!

It now feels and smells like a home!!