This is the Time
I’ve been waiting for my dreams to turn into something I’ve believed in and I have realized everything that I have ever wanted has become either a reality or will become real. I am a strong, determined woman who knows where she is going even if I have no direction. I know that I am young, but I know that I have had so many opportunities to have the time of my life and I am not ready for them to end. South Africa, The River Bank Run, Graduating and Skydiving are many of the highlights from this year that keep me moving forward and excited for new growing opportunities.
I know I’ve made mistakes and I fall short every day, but I know that specific plans are laid before me, I can taste it. I know I live passionately because life is so much more then the daily grind of work, stress, tears and frustration. We were made for something far greater.
I love this verse in the Bible “ Let us throw everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us”. Life is a race that we either live out loud, passionately, boldly or we live in shell that hinders us from tasting the real beauty of creation. I know people want to know what I am thinking and often, I cannot find the depth of words to describe my analytical mind, but this is the one place where I can put words to my life. I know that I am a deep thinker and things either move me deeply or I hurt for the world, because I know things can be better.
Perhaps I am a dreamer or maybe I see the world in the way it could be and I am profoundly lost in the next step. Maybe if people loved for the right reasons and two people had such deep love they could change the world together. Perchance if we could unselfishly love one another and serve one another, the world would be different. Maybe if we listened to our hearts instead of society we would live differently. I don’t know.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately and I have thought about fear. Fear keeps us from living and being who we were created to be. I think that fear in itself is a journey to be explored. I know over the last six months I have come face to face with fear and every time I look it square in the eye, feeling my knees trembling, but never once have I let it defeat me. I know it’s a battle that is between flesh and blood, but the reality of the situation is are we going to let fear rule our life or are we going to lose our life and defeat fear? What kind of choices are we going to make. I know that this thinking may be too deep or it may cause people not want to read because this thinking brings change. PEOPLE DON’T LIKE CHANGE. If people wanted to change, they would do it themselves instead of having someone tell them what to do….
I know I am very restless with life and I know that the world is at my fingertips, yet I feel responsible to certain things in my life. I am keeping the door open and I know that God will move me when the time is right… Move ME NOW!!! He’ll move me when I am not ready and when fear stands in my way. I know it. This is a battle….
I know I am going back to Africa.... The one thing I know for sure...